Stagnant

I'm pretty sure time moves differently for me than others.  It's either that, or I'm half as patient as everyone else.  Whatever, not important.

We are waiting to hear back on whether or not we got the apartment we want in Germany.  A part of me really hopes we do, but a part of me also wants to keep looking.  There are some really amazing places in our Target Area, and it's hard to decide on one.  Especially because we kept looking after we put in our application...  That's a recipe for regret.

Yesterday, R told me that if I have any reservations about moving to Germany, it's not too late.  He has a job, we have a bank account; those are the 2 main things you need to facilitate the rest of life.  And it's that rest of life he wants to make sure are the best for both of us they can be.  And it's because he's so careful to make sure I'm an equal partner in this decision, that he's not dragging me off to his country in pursuit of only his dreams, that I can be as committed as he is to this move.  I feel like I'm getting at least as much out of it as he, long term.  Short term will be difficult as I struggle to adapt, but I'm hoping the long term benefits won't take too long to kick in.